Why can't I be normal? Of course I know the answer to that question....it's another question....what's normal? I know there's no such thing as normal, and I wouldn't want to be it anyway if there was! But I think it's a question that most of us ask ourselves at some point. It's a question we might ask ourselves when we experience a feeling of not being in control of what we think we want.
I have had so much going on in my head lately and no time to reflect on it by writing about it. I have my most energy early in the morning, but I've committed myself to 5:30am yoga class, then my KB workout, and then I still have a job.....I haven't made it a priority until now.
Yes, my workouts are important, yes, the food I eat is important, but what goes on emotionally, and spiritually, what I think about, is equally important. My blog has been all of these things for me, and the more I grow I can't help but recognize what my focus needs to be on. It's about 
understanding, and making choices based on that understanding. (blah,blah,blah)
So, I've decided to blog on whims. If I find myself thinking, asking, I'm just going to write it down. I won't pressure myself to find the answer right away or wait until I can finish my thoughts....I just have to have an on going dialogue. I need to get this stuff out of me.
In the last couple of months I have discovered alot of things I thought I already knew, the most important being that I was a compulsive overeater. And because of this rediscovery I feel liberated. I have experienced damaging my body in an unhealthy way, and now I know better. I am more committed now to treating myself, my body to good health. Can I be perfect, why do I feel I need to be perfect? How is perfect defined? Same as "normal"? Is there such thing?
So the question about being normal is in regards to eating. And the answer I found to the question, "Why can't I eat like a normal person?" will require a little more time than I have right now....but I'll be back.....
Friday, February 29, 2008
Why Can't I be Normal? (and other ramblings....)
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8 comments:
I agree with your post completely. I think everyone struggles with being normal(perfect)in regards to some aspect of their life.
Dittos (and hi Jenn!). As I inch closer to 50, I find that I actually like much of my quirkiness, at least way more than I did when I was younger.
I love it when you write. So keep it up -- thoughts formed, unformed, stream of consciousness, whatever!
And your pictures are adorable!
Jenn,
You mean you're not perfect? LOL
(I know you're the perfect mommy though!)
Leslie,
Lots more writing...lots more food for thought.
Nope, Tracy, not perfect, and well, ask my kids in 20 years what they think! LOL
Hi Leslie *waving*
I love your ramblings Tracy and I have learned so much about my own compulsive behavior and healthy eating just from reading your blog. I for one am glad that you are not normal :)
Long may you ramble...
You are what you are, and you are normal. Not average or common by any means, but normal. Thanks for sharing yourself.
Aaron,
I also had been thinking about the meaning of average.....still thinking....
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